Four words that haunted me for several years.
By all accounts, I shouldn't have felt this way.
In fact, from the outside looking in, I had made it.
I was the daughter of a single mom who had me at 19. I was a first-generation college graduate with a bachelor's degree and a high-paying job. I was successful.
But I couldn't escape the gnawing feeling in my stomach that I wasn't where I was supposed to be. Yet, every time I would look at avenues out, I would feel fear. And the fear was strong.
I had thoughts like:
"I already put in 3 years to this job. Why waste my time?"
"I barely made it out of Smith College unscathed. Do I really think graduate school is a good idea?"
"I am making good money. What if I fail?"
"What would they think?"
I had an internal tug-a-war with these thoughts for over 3 years. But one day in August of 2018, I realized something: enough is enough.
I was letting fear rule my entire being—the fear of failure, embarrassment, disappointing family, and shame.
Fear was getting me nowhere. Fast. In reality, fear was cementing to this never-ending loop of ' I am so lost.'
It was time to untether myself from fear and step out of this loop.
Two months later, I applied and enrolled in SNHU's online MS in Human Resource Management.
And my love of HR and business was born.